Tonight I find myself filled with love and in awe of the life God has given me here in China. I love the youth I get to know from being involved in the youth group here. They are amazing kids who have such great hearts. I can't believe I get to be a part of their lives. And yet as they left my apartment tonight my heart grew heavy and I became emotional thinking about life. I have this huge desire right now to place deep roots somewhere. To know the place I am is home, home in a way that I can claim it and own it. Maybe the knowledge that I'm leaving China in a few short months makes that desire greater because I know my roots will not grow deep here. Maybe I feel like I'm cheating myself by not staying here. I don't know where these feelings are coming from tonight.
I do know, however, that the more I trust in God and His plan, the more peace he will give me.
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." - Romans 15:13
May you be filled with more peace today as you trust more in Him, the Prince of Peace.
